So having been a real worry-guts all this term and feeling like anxiety came back to get me, I went back to counselling today. I finished it in June and everything was much better then, so I felt a bit sheepish about coming back now.
I saw the same person as before, so at least it wasn’t someone totally new. I was really nervous, which was the first time I’d really visibly shown this in a counselling session (before I was very good at keeping my cool even if I didn’t feel like it).
The long and the short of it was, I explained the situation and he thinks I don’t just have social anxiety but “Generalised Anxiety Disorder”. That seriously unnerved me; I haven’t done as much research into GAD but I have it established in my head as something that’s a pretty big deal that I really don’t want to have.
I had been quite proud of the way I could figure out what was going on by myself ages before asking a professional (I figured out I had social anxiety about 4 years previously) so it was especially disconcerting to have it suggested that I had something I hadn’t even considered.
But at the end of the day, it’s all just a matter of nomenclature. The technical name/s for this stuff doesn’t fundamentally change anything (except my perception if I let it)
I haven’t wasted any time going about the solution that was suggested, even though I didn’t like it, so I mean that’s good.
Also a plus and completely off topic, I impulse bought the nicest shawl/blanket today from a Christmas market stall after all that happened!