Little Awkward Moment

It was a quiet Saturday morning and I hear one of my flatmates and lots of unfamiliar voices in the hall. A minute after they go out I emerge from my room to go to a society. When I open the door of the block to go outside I see my flatmate with grandparents, parents and a couple of other relatives dawdling about. So all of them except my flatmate initially turn around and just stare at me suspiciously for some reason I can’t comprehend. I smile awkwardly back and no one says anything and then my flatmate looks around and waves, saying “Hey” uncertainly. I smile properly, wave and say “hiya” back but it’s weird. Then I walk in the opposite direction to prove to said gawping relatives that I’m not a stalker or undercover criminal.

What even was that?

I have also made several new discoveries today.

1. Sitting on the desk is way more comfortable than sitting at the desk.

2. There are 2 spiders living in my window (on the outdoors side), not just 1 as I originally thought.

3. And I totally started writing a new story that I got inspiration for yesterday and I wrote tonnes and tonnes of ideas for it in bullet points. I don’t usually write dystopian stuff but this idea has a sprinkling of that element to it. It’s in the future and people live underwater because earth got too dangerous/overpopulated, but then this one girl reads a book and finds out there is in fact a world above water which people originally came from. So she’s all like “I’m going to find it” etc etc. I promise it’s more exciting than it sounds.

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Indecisive

As the title suggests, I’m feeling a little bit indecisive at the moment!

The Christian Union at my uni have meetings twice a week. The Tuesday one is the bigger meeting for people from all over campus and the Thursday one is a small group Bible study just for people in your particular college. I’m settling into the small groups one on a Thursday fairly alright but today is Tuesday and I am lacking the motivation to go to the larger meeting.

It’s the seventh week at university now and I’ve been to the first 2 Tuesday meetings, neither of which was especially traumatic in the social side of things. The first was just an introductory thing where a large percentage of us didn’t know each other. At the second one, I floundered a bit when everyone was just mingling but then a few second years came up and kindly started conversation with me. I sat with them for the talkie bit because I couldn’t see anyone else I knew, and they didn’t seem to mind. Afterwards I got talking to a girl who is also on two of my courses and in one of my seminars, and we had a good conversation.

Then I missed a few of the larger meetings because of my workload, but I managed to get to a few of the Thursday small groups, where there’s about 10-15 of us. So that’s all good.

Basically, the more I think about it the less I want to force myself to go to the larger meeting because I’m scared of not having anyone to talk to at the beginning or anyone to sit with. That sounds really petty but I don’t want to be seen as that girl who stands in the corner with her phone while everyone else socialises.

There are at least 3 or 4 people I feel confident talking to but I haven’t mastered the art of going up to someone I know when they are already talking to several people I don’t know and successfully joining in with the group conversation. I tried this the other week when there were just 2 people, one I did know and her friend who I didn’t know. It started off ok but then a third year joined the conversation and because I was quieter than the other two she started well-meaningly trying to talk to me, separate from the others. So I was there trying to figure out what they were talking about and join in, when she’d suddenly ask me what I was studying or something. It was sabotaging all my concentration on attempting to fit in. Then as things were going on like this, horror of horrors, she asked me “Do you know them?” gesturing towards the other two (who were none the wiser). She thought I was a total stranger just third-wheeling and not saying anything! I think my feeling of “I cannot believe you just said that” was evident on my face when I replied “Yes” because she didn’t say owt else after that.

In my defence it was early in the morning and my brain was way too slow to be chatty.

All that aside, I am leaning towards not going to the large meetings as I’m likely to just embarrass myself if I’m feeling stressed about it the whole time. I think it’s achievement enough that I’m more or less fitting in at the weekly small event, so maybe I should just let myself be proud of that. Thoughts would be appreciated though 🙂

Liebster Award

Thank you so much to http://feather2oakes.wordpress.com for nominating me for the Leibster Award, I feel really honoured! You should definitely check out her blog because it’s amazing 🙂

THE RULES FOR ACCEPTING THE AWARD ARE AS FOLLOWS:

Χ 1) Post the award on your blog
Χ 2)Thank the blogger who presented this award and link back to their blog
Χ 3)Write 11 random facts about yourself
Χ 4)Nominate 11 bloggers who you feel deserve this award and who have less than 200 followers
Χ 5) Answer 11 questions posted by the presenter and ask your nominees 11 questions.

11 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:

  1.  I have never been on an aeroplane. It’s funny because I have always had a fascination with the idea of flying and all things that fly. I will be going on a plane for the first time this December with my best friend and I couldn’t be more excited! That leads on to my second fact…
  2. I am going to Iceland in 2 months! It’ll be the week before Christmas so I can’t wait to see what it’ll like there with all the Christmas decorations up.
  3. I love accents. Especially Scottish, Australian, and Scandinavian accents. My own accent is a Yorkshire accent, which for anyone not from the UK is a large county in Northern England, the best one of them all (in my humble opinion). In England we have such a vast number of different accents and we don’t all sound like the BBC/Queen at all like a lot of folk outside the UK think. Just so you know. 😛
  4. Blooming heck I’m starting to get stuck for facts now.. I’m a bookworm; I love Lord of the Rings and a lot of the classics. My favourite book genre is Fantasy.
  5. I have just started studying English Language, Literature, and Creative Writing at university.
  6. My favourite colour is blue. When I was 13 I thought it would be a good idea to turn my bedroom entirely blue so I got a dark blue carpet, medium blue wallpaper, and duckegg blue ceiling but later I regretted this as the carpet in particular makes my room seem a pretty dark.
  7.  I look a fair bit younger than I actually am. I’ve just turned 20 but like everyone I meet for the first time thinks I’m 16.
  8. I am terrified of spiders to a drastic extent. I struggle to even look at a picture of one. Things went downhill after I once stepped on quite a big one at home wearing nothing but socks, and then proceeded to watch it unflatten itself and stare me down for another half hour because it had me cornered.
  9. I have a crazy dog called Tiffy. She’s a cross between a staffy and something else, not sure what. She’s bigger than a staffy with slightly longer hair. And I’ve trained her to high five like a pro.
  10. I love writing.

NOMINATE 11 BLOGGERS:

  1. I’d Rather Be In Iceland
  2. Graduate From Social Anxiety
  3. mysticheartblog
  4. Courage and Hope
  5. my personal thing
  6. Hanna Y
  7. A Diplomat’s Daughter
  8. J. Sevick
  9. emilymelendez4
  10. GRATIA
  11. therealityblog

QUESTIONS TO ME:

  1. What is your daily routine? Well I’m still settling into my new routine but it’s pretty much: Get up really late in the morning, have breakfast, have a cup of tea, and then go to my lectures which start around lunchtime. Then I come back and make a cup of tea and go to my room in the flat I share with 7 others, put my laptop on and do homework/surf the internet, then go to the kitchen again and cook tea, then go to a society/go back to my laptop and do laptoppy things till late.
  2. Do you have any superstitions? Nope, none that I’m aware of!
  3. One thing absolutely no one knows about you. Oh blimey I don’t know! Which is weird because I’m not the most open of people. But everything I think of at least one person knows about. Oh hang on, not exactly a tasty secret but there’s a poem I discovered recently called “Come to the Edge” by Christopher Logue that I really like, and I don’t believe I’ve shared that with anyone yet.
  4. Cats or dogs? Dogs all the way.
  5. If you could have anything in the world, what would it be, and why? The ability to fly. Because how cool would that be?
  6. Favorite TV show? Sherlock!
  7. Favorite drink out with your friends? Peach Schnapps. Literally the only alcoholic drink I’ve tried that I like.
  8. Ideal date night? Something spotaneous, watching the stars (jokes it rains all day and all night in Lancaster) and just talking maybe.
  9. One thing off of your bucketlist? I don’t have an organised bucket list as such but I do want to see the Northern Lights. I’m hoping to see them when I go to Iceland this winter!
  10. Favorite candle scent? Any of the Christmassy scents.
  11. Let’s be friends? Yeah why not! =)

 

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